learning to wing it

i rolled over in bed and realized i forgot to set my alarm and that i missed my son's doctors apt.  good morning, courtney! Welcome to the real world!

Fortunately, sleeping in with my son snuggled so close to me that I couldn't move made my awakening better. he laid there and talked to me as we woke up together. rubbed my face, breathing his stinky breath on me and not judging me for my stinky morning breath. true love there.

i went to check on my oldest daughter in her room. she just transitioned to her own bed and for now, she sleeps on an air mattress and somehow she sunk all the way to the floor. it was almost entirely deflated and there she lay sound asleep. i leaned down to kiss her and apologize for the poor sleeping conditions and she replied "it's ok mom, i think it's kinda cool." bless her and her accepting and forgiving heart.  God knew that age 18 if I was going to have a baby I needed a patient, loving, go with the flow kind of kid.  He gave me a break. He is good.

we made it down to the breakfast table. got the kids fed and proceeded with my morning routine of letting the dog out. i walked in the back room and right in front of the door where we let her out to go to the bathroom was a pile of dog pee and poop.  so then i cleaned. washed the rug, scrubbed, vacuumed, gagged. the dog never came back in from going to the bathroom. she is still out running loose through the neighborhood, and quite frankly i don't care.

i made a pot of coffee and once it was done brewing i realized, i brewed water.  yes, i forgot to add coffee. so i started over.

when passing by the bathroom, i took a glimpse of my awesome self and saw my shirt is on backwards. this is all a true story.  all of this happened within an hour.  i don't normally have these kinds of days. i hear people talk about having "such bad, terrible days" all the time and it is like a nails on a chalk board when i hear people complain like that. anyway, if i do have these kind of days, i usually don't notice it. but today, it is becoming very apparent that the forces are working against me.

so, while i was going to the bathroom, and thinking about all of these events, i laughed out loud.  i thought to myself what is going on?  i just think it's funny that i am having such a weird day.  so anyway, i am choosing to embrace it.  life said today is the day of funny tricks. i like funny tricks. i can play that game too. so we are being silly today. i realized i won't win this battle. i am not giving up, but rather just going with it.  if i brew water, i will use that scorching hot water to clean my sink (and i did!).  if my clothes are on backwards, i will declare it "wear your clothes backwards day".  if the dog shits in my house, well oh well-i needed to clean the carpets anyway.

in the midst of all this i am thinking about how it is "spring". i admired the snow covered streets lit by street lights out my daughters bedroom window late last night. they were beautiful.  i was thinking how Spring time in Ohio is special and unique.  how in one area there can be buds poking through frozen soil and layered with a dusting of snow.  i was thinking about all the fun things we do in Spring, including sometimes swimming!

My kids love to swim.  They are itching to swim and they wish we had an indoor gym/pool membership but they know we can't afford such luxuries.  i was thinking, on this funny, strange trick of a day that i would lay a tarp down on the living room floor, bring the kids baby pool in and fill it with water.  i askedmy youngest daughter (age 5) if she thought that would be fun. she asked "mom, are you crazy?"  yes, honey i am.  and like i always say, whether i am crazy, weird or all together insane, whatever it is works for me and my family.

don't let bad days happen. bad days are a made up thing.  it's a myth.  make the most of all situations.  i am thankful today for brewed water, dog poop and weird wardrobes.